Making this thread like the series of the venting & happiness thread. I feel like I can't really move on with the bad things in my head, good or bad. It makes sense to just let it out sometimes. And on a personal side, knowing most for you guys for 7 years+ Why shouldn't I be more open than I already am. I'm also gonna say all this with a smile on my face cause although some confessions can be bad, there's always time for improvement!
So here we go.
Most people know me as a terrible saver...Spender.. Who cares. Normally I'm fine once I have enough money in my bank account & my serious saving side kicks in like a responsible adult, but with all the unforeseen occurrences in the past few months. It's been rather shit :'D I spend money on people, too much & too often. More like the past few pay checks I've spent almost half to donating to people. Saying this with the shakiness in my hands as I type, I love making people happy or giving them a sudden smile from something unexpected. But it's just ruining me as I do it.
I feel like it's a sense to cope for the lack of comfort I've felt lately. People pay attention to you when you give them something. But how much of that is actually true or "worth it"? It's more than a bad habit and I'm stupid as fuck :') But nows the time to stop it.