I fucked up recently. Well, kind of recently. I ignored them again and I think this time I lost them to another. And it tears me apart thinking that I wasn't their valentine because. I loved them. and I had my future planned out and we used to talk all night and I ruined it. Because of my second-hand thoughts. Because I hadn't planned out my future. Because I didn't know what I wanted. I was scared I was going to make a mistake. Then something happened and it was so little. so stupid and so insignificant. I lost the person I loved more than anything in this world because I was stupid. Because I overreacted to something. I miss you, Billy Joel, sometimes its hard without you but I hope you're happy where you are.
Love, Bessie Lou.