To the Temporary Bliss. or the Ordinary Alien. Or..well, Y.
If you found this, you might have stalked me by looking my name on google. And if not, let this be an unsent message, that will dwell inside the internet along with this website.
I know, that last time you said a real thing to me was "Don't talk to me ever, again.". Pretty strong words that you said from inside your anger as a reply to the words i also uttered as i was also full of anger at the time.
But now, it seems both of us, as we kept seeing. at least for a month of no communication at all, we both knew. You were a best companion of my days, and i was too for you. Bit by bit, day by day, we keep creating and opening more and bigger opportunities for us to start a conversation again.Starting unblocking on platform by platform. Starting to re-use a place we barely use anymore to gain attention from each others.
At least, for me, that's how i see that.
I want to know how everything goes there. How about the job you were preparing for the interview the last time we talked. How was your mother's surgery. How was school. How was everything. We used to talk about everything from dusk to dawn.
I also wanted to tell you about my graduation ceremony. About the prom night. About how i was preparing for my flight to visit you. I wanted to tell you more things when it was your birthday. Yet i couldn't. I don't want to disappoint you. You've expected me to leave and get away, not to become a bother that keeps bugging your life.
Your words were,"Don't talk to me ever, again.". Meaning i couldn't, but you still could; It's words you spitted in your angered state, i understand. And you need not to feel like you'll lose to a commitment you've made for yourself if you do start to contact me again. No, it is not. Believe me. You're an awesome person in my eyes. You did all of those for your future. If you felt your self worth was lowered when i was always with you, if you felt like it wasn't yourself when you're with me, when you're always handling you problems alone all the time but then i appeared to always support your back, trust me. You're amazing. You're tough and strong. A person i admire.
And i know that you're a person that will stay true to yourself.
If i was correct that you wanted to contact me again, i'm always here. You won't lose anything other than your ego if you do.
Don't worry about me. As you've ever said to me, i will be a good man. And i'm on my way. Chasing my own dreams. Would be complete if you're back to be the part of it. As i wanted myself to be the part of your dream as well.