So yesterday, I went to sleep thinking that I'm just gonna wake up the next day and well, just get through the rest of the day. Unfortunately, the devil has another plan for me.
You see, today I had THE ABSOLUTE WORST NIGHTMARE I've ever had in my entire 20 years of life. I mean seriously, I've never had worse before and I've seen many scary ones.
So what is it that makes it so darn scary? Well, usually some of the dreams that scares me shitless are the 'jumpy' dreams. y'know like those in horror films where they build tension and then BAM! The monster appears or whatever and you wake up.
But this one's SOOO different, the progression of horror starts at the beginning where I see two kids that seems inconspicuous at first and then to me as a kid in a car of a guy who I was looking up on my tablet. I then see 'visions' which is basically cross-cuts of the first two kids being tortured by the said guy with scissors, knife, etc.
You see, unlike the dream I had yesterday, this dream was not lucid and so I didn't know that it was a dream so I wasn't like trying to wake up. Therefore, I really feel like that kid who's getting kidnapped and KNOWS what will happen to me..........................
butbtut that wasn't the worst part. worst part is that i keep seeing the fucking visions where i can see the kids from before starts to be getting killed in GRAPHIC DETAIL where I even saw one got his face cut off reveling his skull while he's concious and screaming. this happens until the very fucking end of the dream which IRL only lasts two hours but seems like forever.
Note that this really isn't like watching violent murder on the internet. I genuinely believed I was in his DAMN CAR and belief is a strong device.
Well, turns out that my parents were driving the car and they'd borrowed it from the guy. But the IMAGERY PERSISTS. The kids, now just skins and bones, are now starting to be placed on a table piece by piece seemingly just to torture me further. Then a guy came in offering a 'hand' I mean an 'arm' of someone in hopes of joining the killer murder crew. The dream ends on a religious note, seemingly an attempt by god to bring me back to faith but after such showing, I don't think I'll be coming back god...
Well actually the ending is more horrifying than 'religious note' but it's gonna require you to understand some of my past to completely understand. Short version, the guy is like a 'holy man' and a leader of a cult, which seems to be a reflection of my teenage years where my mom brought me around these people due to bad influence on her part (thankfully she gets better). But Jesus, this nightmare... it has every bad thing that has ever happened to me repeated, ramped up to 11, and throw in the suffering of two or more people in just to scare the shit out of me.
Well, how about you guys? Have you got any nightmares that you think is the worst you've had?
PS: And the guy's murders also remains unknown which is shown in my final conversation with my parents before I woke up. It seems that they had an 'idea' though because they said something about 'not wanting to get in his business'. Thankfully it's all not real.
PPS: OR IS IT?