I feel like I could just die right now. Part of me is just sad and hopeless, the other parts wants to beat some senseless the next time I see him.. Also just missing someone, but I guess it doesn't matter anymore. Just wanna wake up away & free from any pain & associate with people who actually matter to me.

And don't criticize me DC. I know you're reading this shit

I go to the doctors a lot, but I haven't gone for months now. I asked my dad to set an appointment, and I told him why. He always wants to make these excuses like "it's because your sleep schedule is messed up" or I'm not as active since sports ended." Or I could be this or that, which has nothing to do with my problem! I tried telling him that, that isn't the case but nooooo, he'll just continue to ignore it until something bad happens like always.

My SAT score (in my eyes) was fucking shit, and I wanted to retake it in August, but I'm not going to make it, plus it booked out. THEN on the day we got our scores we could send it to any of our colleges for free, TELL ME WHY that stopped before the day ended! Like I didn't get home super late, but it still ended. Sending scores is expensive af. I plan to retake it in fall, but I know I'm probably going to do worst.

Mixed signals, mostly negative. I need to find new friends as a distraction.

@Wolfangle
If you seek new friends solely because you need a distraction, you're doing friendship wrong.

@DarkChaplain More like, i usually try to meet new people on the regular. But I haven't lately cause of focusing too hard on one person. Meeting new people would be a distraction from my recent.. off feeling(?) d: how do I say this without sounding like an asshole. Uhh no it's not solely for being a distraction

Meeting new people opens your mind to the variety of people out there. Meet cool people, have fun, discover new good friends, yada yada

Edit: Need to get you a MommyChapain meme, every time you post here

@Wolfangle
You mean something like this?

3 days straight of province to home and vice versa travel 2 days left Let me rest, transfering is fucking hard.

Struggling, yet again.

A vid was leaked of a bunch of teens trying to gang bang a girl on a bus, yes a public transport because no one gives a shit these days. Neither does the driver apparently. And to make things even better, I scroll down to see a comment saying they're just brats fooling around "you guys are making such a big deal out of it"... And this mess happened in the very city I live in. You know you're in safe hands when police officers just watch from the sidelines as thugs with swords comfortably mug citizens in public. Man this country has gone to shit a long time ago but what's to come seems to be even more dreadful. Kids these days are horrifying, and that's coming from a kid.. Well here I am going back to my usual I hate people phase.

That's fucked up.

are you talking about the morocco one? bc im moroccan and it was horrendous

@Kyuuun Yep that's the one. The aggressors are apparently from the same neighborhood, they found her to be an easy target as she's mentally ill. That wasn't the first time she got sexually assaulted even. When interviewing their neighbors, they blamed it on drug use and said the teens were just kids.
There are people protesting out there about it, rape in general. But some comments I'm seeing are beyond horrendous..

@Enami I know it's fucked up but the Maghrebi countries have a lot to work on, especially Morocco which is crazy because they have the most sane king in that area. Either way, what happened to her shouldn't go untold and I'm glad you heard about it. Also more Moroccans always im proud ur moroccan and you speak up because our countries are kind of bullshit

@Kyuuun Well I mean our king is pretty much a dictator (not as bad as his father ofc but still) and the government is a joke, I wouldn't really expect things to be great with such circumstances. At least we got rid of that law that allowed rapists to escape consequences if they married the victim, pressuring the latter to go ahead with it to protect their honour. It's still crazy that it existed up until recently. The country is not interested in making things better though, that's the issue. So I'm not exactly hopeful. Although I'm glad this went viral, I hope this serves as a wake up call for people.

Fucking retards, complaining to the kind employees on the train won't make the train go faster.

You guys have employees on trains? That's insane. The only people working on trains here are the train driver and security (rarely).

@Deftones yes, well, not a lot of them, but a few. A driver, one to control tickets, one if the cafe, and maybe a couple more? I don't know.

My boss tasked me with uploading tons of products on Amazon and it's been a whole month of failed attempts and frustration. I'm literally on the phone with Amazon for 5 hours a day every single day, getting told COMPLETELY different stories by different people. I've worked with spreadsheets for over a year and I KNOW I'm not at fault. Uploaded a spreadsheet that a man from Amazon made me upload, was wonky, then I call back and another woman told me that template doesn't work on Amazon anymore. SO WHY IS IT UP? Why is this the LEAST user friendly website in the UNIVERSE. We have our products on tons of websites that are very popular for shopping and Jesus FUCKING Christ. I know Amazon is a H U G E business. So is every fucking business I deal with and they're not as SHITTY as amazon is. I can't handle anymore stress over this. I haven't thought or done anything but deal with Amazon for a whole month now.

i fixed it lol

After years of just "trim" haircut, I decided to get a quite fashionable cut. After the day i went for a cut, I attended my ROTC class in which they announced that men are required to have a 2x3 haircut for the whole duration of the course..... Well fuck, goodbye mi fabulous locks T_T

CANCEL THE CLASS YOUR HAIR IS YOUR CROWN

The class spans for a year;and is required.

I have very few pet peeves in my life, but I never, ever share any type of hygiene tool with anyone. Yet, even with a glaringly obvious note that says, "please don't use" on my toothpaste tube, why in all that is green and good would someone use my toothbrush, and even use it right in front of me. I do my best to be a good host, but I would think some things in life are pretty obvious. Especially when there's a note on it.

Protip for others: Never assume you can do whatever you want when you're a guest in someone's home. Just because someone tells you to relax and make yourself at home doesn't mean you have free reign. It means they're doing their best to be polite, even if your dandruff gets all over their couch, your hair sheds all over the floor, and they clean up your dishes. A good guest takes the initiative to clean up so well, it's almost as if you didn't touch anything. This shows respect and honor to your host. Always, always ask before you attempt to use something. It's a sign that you respect their privacy, and are gracious for letting them stay in their private space to begin with. They didn't have to go out of their way, but they chose to.

Sad how that pro tip should be common sense. :/

Automated spam callers are now attacking via direct-to-voicemail. I really wish this was illegal all over the world. The whole purpose is to bypass spam-block apps that pickup/hangup.

Welp Time has come, goodbye my precious locks. Hello 2x3 cut T_T

I have put in five years into our relationship and then you meet four people of your own skin and suddenly I do not exist and then after all ive done for you go and block me? we were supposed to be friends for life. >:(

Heard noises downstairs. Dunno if leaving the lights on was a good thing or not.