I feel like I could just die right now. Part of me is just sad and hopeless, the other parts wants to beat some senseless the next time I see him.. Also just missing someone, but I guess it doesn't matter anymore. Just wanna wake up away & free from any pain & associate with people who actually matter to me.
And don't criticize me DC. I know you're reading this shit
I go to the doctors a lot, but I haven't gone for months now. I asked my dad to set an appointment, and I told him why. He always wants to make these excuses like "it's because your sleep schedule is messed up" or I'm not as active since sports ended." Or I could be this or that, which has nothing to do with my problem! I tried telling him that, that isn't the case but nooooo, he'll just continue to ignore it until something bad happens like always.
My SAT score (in my eyes) was fucking shit, and I wanted to retake it in August, but I'm not going to make it, plus it booked out. THEN on the day we got our scores we could send it to any of our colleges for free, TELL ME WHY that stopped before the day ended! Like I didn't get home super late, but it still ended. Sending scores is expensive af. I plan to retake it in fall, but I know I'm probably going to do worst.
Mixed signals, mostly negative. I need to find new friends as a distraction.
@Wolfangle
If you seek new friends solely because you need a distraction, you're doing friendship wrong.
@DarkChaplain More like, i usually try to meet new people on the regular. But I haven't lately cause of focusing too hard on one person. Meeting new people would be a distraction from my recent.. off feeling(?) d: how do I say this without sounding like an asshole. Uhh no it's not solely for being a distraction
Meeting new people opens your mind to the variety of people out there. Meet cool people, have fun, discover new good friends, yada yada
Edit: Need to get you a MommyChapain meme, every time you post here
@Wolfangle
You mean something like this?
3 days straight of province to home and vice versa travel 2 days left Let me rest, transfering is fucking hard.
Struggling, yet again.