Please lower the expectations you have the world and me. You can't expect everything to be perfect. I can't live up to that. It hurts so bad that I can't satisfy you or make you proud.
Also, please stop treating our family like some sort of methodical exchange place. A family is not a circle in which tit-for-tat is done. It is a circle in which we give unconditionally without expecting anything in return. If anything, what we receive is the other's happiness.
Do I mean anything at all to you?