probably emptying my bio could save some data if you're stalking me..
shafnat joined on Oct 1st, 2011, since that has made 840 posts that are still accessible today, 6 of which are threads. Helping shape the community, shafnat has given 1351 upvotes, and was last online on Sep 17th, 2019.
Apparently, i took almost everything emotionally lately. i can cry just by driving slowly in the night, or i can smile as wide as i could just by seeing a cute cat, or whatever that triggers anything in my memory. In fact, in 16 Personalities Test i got the result of INFJ-T which has 100% feeling and 0% thinking.
To the Temporary Bliss. or the Ordinary Alien. Or..well, Y.
If you found this, you might have stalked me by looking my name on google. And if not, let this be an unsent message, that will dwell inside the internet along with this website.
I know, that last time you said a real thing to me was "Don't talk to me ever, again.". Pretty strong words that you said from inside your anger as a reply to the words i also uttered as i was also full of anger at the time. Biggest Regret.
But now, it seems both of us, as we kept seeing. at least for a month of no communication at all, we both knew. You were a best companion of my days, and i was too for you. Bit by bit, day by day, we keep creating and opening more and bigger opportunities for us to start a conversation again.Starting unblocking on platform by platform. Starting to re-use a place we barely use anymore to gain attention from each others.
At least, for me, that's how i see that.
I want to know how everything goes there. How about the job you were preparing for the interview the last time we talked. How was your mother's surgery. How was school. How was everything. We used to talk about everything from dusk to dawn.
I also wanted to tell you about my graduation ceremony. About the prom night. About how i was preparing for my flight to visit you. I wanted to tell you more things when it was your birthday. Yet i couldn't. I don't want to disappoint you. You've expected me to leave and get away, not to become a bother that keeps bugging your life.
Your words were,"Don't talk to me ever, again.". Meaning i couldn't, but you still could; It's words you spitted in your angered state, i understand. And you need not to feel like you'll lose to a commitment you've made for yourself if you do start to contact me again. No, it is not. Believe me. You're an awesome person in my eyes. You did all of those for your future. If you felt your self worth was lowered when i was always with you, if you felt like it wasn't yourself when you're with me, when you're always handling you problems alone all the time but then i appeared to always support your back, trust me. You're amazing. You're tough and strong. A person i admire. And i know that you're a person that will stay true to yourself. If i was correct that you wanted to contact me again, i'm always here. You won't lose anything other than your ego if you do.
Don't worry about me. As you've ever said to me, i will be a good man. And i'm on my way. Chasing my own dreams. Would be complete if you're back to be the part of it. As i wanted myself to be the part of your dream as well.
Covered another song with a classmate!
@Ucui watched it, her voice was so heavy oh gosh. You look the cover up from Nikki Yanofsky too! Hers is more upbeat, but the swing's still there
I kinda took my confidence up and opened myself for a design image render commission. two students of interior design took it and they paid me pretty well. Here's some result.
designs aren't mine. rendered by me.
@Sheep aaaaah i get it, so you got the robusta beans? grind it. Or do you have the ground already? If so, since i know you have a french press, theres a lot of tips but more or less this video will explain!