I am tired of being sick, and getting used to this new medicine is killing me. I just want to feel okay again.

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@Wolfangle summed it up pretty nicely. Miss you @Kip, hope to talk to you one of these days bud. I hope you're doing well, and just being as happy as you can be.

I've been doing a lot of thinking over the past couple years. Thinking about who I am, the choices I've made, and the life I've led. I cant say that I am happy with all of it, I cant say that I have led a life where I haven't hurt people along the way, but I have come to realize over the years that thats just the name of the game. None of us can go through life and not catch a couple bodies along the way. Some of us intentionally, mostly out of the ignorance of youth. I guess all I really want to say, is forgive yourself for your mistakes, and please learn from them. Don't let your guilt over hurting someone rule over you, even if there is nothing you can do to mend that relationship, wish them happiness and make some for yourself as well.

Eh why not ill join

I don't wanna die, but also I don't want to be alive.

I just want to disappear from between my sheets,

And dissolve into the puddles on the streets.

Turns out I'm not as clever as before,

And people say I need to be more honest.

But honesty isn't something I can afford.

I'm not actively looking at the moment, but I am open to the idea. If I were to get married I would like a small wedding, just family and friends, no extended cousins or anything like that. Though the more I think about it, the more I like the idea of staying single for longer. Marriage can be a tricky thing, and I'd rather not be 5 years down the line and realize I made a mistake with the person I chose. So for the time being I'm just gonna enjoy being single.